If you could relive one year of your life, which one would it be?
1985 was a bad year.
I was in 1st grade.
I had been SAed by two neighbors in the same events as my older sister. She was the 2nd of The First Four, I was third, We shared “middle child” syndrome in a narcissistic household.
She’s an accused felon.
If I could go back to 1985 I would have told my teachers, my principal, my baseball coach, the guy at the pony keg, fudgin ANYONE..
Mother isolated me. There weren’t many people I could tell.
She’d locked me in a dank, dark, smelly basement and turned the lights off. She screamed at me through the door. She wanted me to stopped telling people I had been sexually abused.
Mother “bought” Courtney’s silence. Clothes. Stereo. Money for tapes and CDs. And cigarettes. Birth Control. SLR Camera & photo lessons. A car. They bailed her out of a few messes. A second car, which is a hilarious story: Where’s my Honda?
Mother turned my siblings against me. Courtney and I stayed together. That really upset Mother. She turned Murph and Karen against me. Stefanie is a lost cause. I still wonder if the neighbors also abused her? I need to ask her. We’re talking about a get together.
I’m starting to think there was a CPS Investigation in 1985. Stefanie, Jenny and Eric must’ve lied. I do not not recall ever speaking to a CPS investigator/ social worker alone ever.
Rita always hid me. Kidnapped me. Stole me away to a different Mormon’s house. Kidnapping is a felony. Who aided and abetted her?
If I had a Time Machine I would go back to 1985 and tell more people what happened. I tried. And I was violently abused for reporting.
Courtney is who got Mother to stop beating me.
Courtney was always there for me. And I was there for her.
Like siblings are supposed to be.
Co-victims with remarkably similar pasts and behavioral patterns: good, bad, and the lovely gray in the middle.
Peace🙏
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