List of posts

  • Blog: A Mormon Cover Up

    This work is memoir. It reflects the author’s present recollections of experiences over time. Some names and characteristics have been changed, some events have been compressed, and some dialogue has been recreated. Joseph has released a podcast about the Mormon Cover Up. Search “Mormon Cover Up” where you listen to podcasts. Father with his children…

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  • 1985 – 88 miles per hour Marty!

    If you could relive one year of your life, which one would it be? 1985 was a bad year. I was in 1st grade. I had been SAed by two neighbors in the same events as my older sister. She was the 2nd of The First Four, I was third, We shared “middle child” syndrome…

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  • Dear Murph* You were protected from the truth. I lived it. Every August, the same gravitational pull hits me. Your birthday, then Karen’s, then mine. Three dates stacked like dominoes, each one tipping me back toward a family system I spent decades trying to escape. I don’t know if you feel it. I do. My…

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  • Paying College Bills and Remembering 1997

    I am breaking a multi generational cycle of abuse and neglect. I was making notes for my therapist and thought that this would be a good post to share with my followers. Thank you for sticking with me all these years. Notes for therapy July 11 I paid my first set of college bills for…

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  • save yourself

    Share a lesson you wish you had learned earlier in life. My mother received a letter from school in 1984. The letter indicated that I had been sexually abused as a 6-year old first grader. My mother did not report the abusers. They were other children that learned about sexual abuse from somewhere. They sexually…

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  • What fears have you overcome and how? I used to be afraid of my biological mother. I used to freeze around her. I used to be so afraid of her I would wet the bed. My earliest memories are of my mother screaming. My mother hitting me. My father straddling my mother and holding her…

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  • My sister

    Who would you like to talk to soon? I would like to talk to my sister. I want to know how she was so brave when we were kids. I want her to know how much our time together means to me. I miss her. Rest in peace. 💐

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  • A survivor.

    What is the legacy you want to leave behind? I am a survivor. That is the legacy I want to leave. I overcame incredible odds to make a life for myself. My parents actively worked to prevent my success and happiness. My parents did not help me in any way, I made it on my…

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  • My parents at my age…

    What were your parents doing at your age? … were hiding violent child abuse and Child Sex Abuse (CSA). By the time my parents were my age they: I am nothing like my biological parents. May they burn in the Hell they told me I was going to.

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